there’s an anime convention and it’s ON MY BIRTHDAY
also i’m working on what i think is probably a longer post, and in general i’m kind of wondering whether i should take it at a slower pace
Hoshino, Me o Tsubutte is complicated. Bullying, make-up, and friendship are complicated. I wanted to make a post about how this manga subverts traditional narratives of bullying, but the more I focused on analyzing that single aspect, the more I felt like I was missing the point.
When we’re first introduced to our main character, Kobayakawa, it is through his scorn for the shallow friendships his classmates make, criticizing them for always just trying to fit in with their little cliques. His first encounter with the heroine, Hoshino, reinforces this anti-social stance, as she and her trendy friends make fun of him for not going along with their jokes.
But then he encounters her again while heading home from school, without her friends and without a shred of hesitation about jumping into a river to save a cat. He sees her, literally and metaphorically, without her makeup on, and he admires that heroic side of her to the point that he jumps into that river himself to save the cat (though he ends up being saved himself).
However, the premise of Hoshino, Me o Tsubutte, or Hoshino, Close Your Eyes, is that Kobayakawa has to help Hoshino put her makeup back on.
Of course, Kobayakawa comically fails at putting on makeup for Hoshino because to him, it just means trying to fit in with those shallow friend groups that he despises. Hoshino constantly has to evade being seen by her friends without her makeup on, often after taking off her makeup to help their classmate, Matsukata, from being bullied.
And Hoshino, Me o Tsubutte is indeed about bullying. But it doesn’t really center on the bully and the victim, both of which are such prevalent stereotypes that you could probably point out who’s who in the picture above without any assistance. In fact, if you’re having any trouble at all, it’s probably because of the presence of a third party, Hoshino, delivering a drop kick and turning the whole scene upside-down.
You see, Hoshino, Me o Tsubutte is about Hoshino, and Kobayakawa, and all of the bystanders who get to decide whether they’ll do something to help or avoid getting involved.
(If you want to avoid spoilers, stop here and read up to chapter 11.)
In fact, as much as that would fit the stereotype of a victim, Kobayakawa isn’t anti-social because he was bullied. His trauma comes from having to watch as his only friend was ostracized by his entire class, not because of a bully, but because everyone saw that it was what everyone else was doing. Kobayakawa is anti-social because what he sees in those shallow circles of friends is the same herd mentality that slowly turned the whole class against his friend just for the sake of fitting in. He is anti-social because he despises himself for being unable to break from the pack himself.
However, Kobayakawa’s aversion to getting involved with others also opposes Hoshino’s readiness to help others, so when he sees Hoshino taking off her makeup to help Matsukata, it is that regret and self-disgust underlying his admiration for her that he is unable to reconcile with her desire to fit in with her friends. Each time he tries to put her makeup back on, Kobayakawa is confronted by the question of why, if Hoshino can help others and make friends, does he do neither?
And yet, it is with that same understanding of herd mentality that Hoshino keeps taking off her makeup. It is that same understanding that makes her upset even when the crowd takes her side against the ones bullying Matsukata. Hoshino keeps rushing to help others because she understands how painful it is to be alone on the other side, as she was the one who was once bullied.
Once Kobayakawa realizes that, he rushes in after Hoshino to tell off the entire crowd, possibly the entire school, for just watching and following the mood as Matsukata was being bullied, but he still can’t forgive himself for not doing anything until Hoshino reassures him that the two of them aren’t so different. She can take her makeup off because she has it on to begin with, because her friends give her a safe place to return to when all is said and done, and Kobayakawa, too, has things that he can do.
Hoshino, Me o Tsubutte says a lot about bullying. But its characters aren’t defined by one-dimensional archetypes of the bully or the victim. They’re defined by how they navigate the fickle processes of social inclusion and exclusion that can make a bully into a victim, and a hero into a bully, all at the whim of the complicit, condescending crowd.
a lot happened and I need some time to get my thoughts in order
happy new year
Localized with the title of “My Youth Romantic Comedy Is Wrong, As I Expected,” Oregairu centers on Hikigaya Hachiman, a prideful cynic with nothing to be proud of. Together with Yukinoshita Yukino, a meritocratic idealist; and Yuigahama Yui, a naive optimist, they form a club that provides help to anyone who asks. While Yukino often wishes for others to solve their problems purely through hard work, Hikigaya often cuts to the fact that their problems aren’t isolated from social contexts:
And the best part is that he’s so right. The entirety of the first season simply is essentially him proving to Yukino that she can’t build a purely meritocratic world by helping to maintain the social status quo that he himself despises. He’s so right, and yet it doesn’t do anything for him. Half of the time he solves problems by becoming the scapegoat. It’s no accident that the second season starts the same way, hurting himself and those who care about him.
Season one breaks down all of the facades associated with superficial relationships and happiness in hilariously cynical exploits that make the second season seem kind of lackluster at first. But season two asks and answers the important questions that come after: What now? What happens after you fully understand the status quo and descend into cynicism? What do you get out of being right that the world is awful if you don’t do anything to change it? Even with the story conveniently providing people for him to become friends with, it doesn’t mean anything so long as he doesn’t try to build more genuine relationships.
Despite the apparent disjoint between the arts and the sciences, there is an interesting relationship between the 6÷2(1+2) problem and The Treachery of Images. Just as a painting of a pipe is not a pipe, and the word ‘pipe’ is not a pipe, the symbol for the number 2 is not 2. It’s easy to forget with the supposed objectivity of math and science, that the order of operations is a convention of mathematical language, one of many, and language is socially constructed.
This is the fundamental problem with popular regard for math and science as the exploration of universal truths: there are no universal truths about how to communicate those truths. Math and science as institutions will forever be dependent on the common sense of language, and 6÷2(1+2) is a demonstration of what happens when people disagree on common sense, especially a common sense that they have been told is a universal truth.